After spending most of my twenties feeling pretty god damn lost, and the first year of my thirties, I have decided it is time to make some changes. Big changes.
Firstly, I am giving up alcohol and becoming strictly tee-total.
No, I am not a full blown alcoholic, but I do (or did) drink more than most people consider to be socially acceptable, and I have noticed lately that I seem to be heading in the alcoholic direction (drinking at home alone), so I am putting a stop to it before I get there. I lost my mother at only 20 years old due to alcohol abuse, and my dad is also an alcoholic (but still a brilliant father may I add).
Secondly, I am going to move towards living a Buddhist lifestyle. I wouldn’t say I am converting to Buddhism, I wasn’t really anything to start with. Religion has played a zero role in my life. But something is drawing me towards Buddhism, and my instinct is telling me ride with it, maybe it will provide the solution to my inability to find inner peace and happiness.
It is very early days yet and I have a lot to learn. I started by reading a book last night that has given me a good insight and a thirst for more. Last night I also tried meditating for the first time, and almost instantly, I feel meditation is going to serve me well with the second half of my life.
Lastly, I am escaping the occupation that I have done for the past 10 years. I am saying good bye to selling people holidays, and an excited hello to teaching English in Spanish companies. It is a big change for me, I have done the same role for such a long time, but also financially because I have earned very well from my travel career working commission only, and teaching doesn’t pay quite so well. But I decided money is not happiness, I certainly haven’t been happy despite my 40k salary.
All these big changes also come with a complete location change, I am from Manchester in the UK, but I recently moved to Madrid. I love this city, I know I made the right move to come here, but I still need to tweak myself in order be completely happy. I have discovered moving country, you do not leave your issues behind.
So with all these changes (all in an effort to find long lost happiness), I thought it was time to start a blog and share my journey with you. Writing about the struggles with these changes should help me commit to them and assist with my ever flagging will power, and hopefully I can maybe help people who are thinking of making familiar life changes.
Join me for the ride!